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This Castle I Built
03:52
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If life is a rollercoaster I must be slowly going up
Cause I've been coming down for so long it feels impossible
And life gave me choices I don't regret a single one
I'd rather be lonely than miserable, that's just who I am
I can't be the one you want if you don't show me how
Cause I don't pick up on signs, I thought you'd know this by now
If you want me just say you want me, I won't work it out
Now stop playing games with my head and think for yourself
The doctors that try to fix me are bad for my health
They're much more concerned with making sure I CAN'T hurt myself
I'm wondering how much longer I can go on like this
I don't need to be talked down
I need a reason to live
But I don't wanna get off, not until I'm done
The nights are getting longer but the best is yet to come
And I look around and see faces I've known, some riding backwards, some scared to ride alone
And I wish that I could reach out to people I've ignored
But it's been too long and I just don't have the balls
I don't want to dwell on the past anymore
I've moved on
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White Tiger
02:02
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I'm standing on the platform
Flames hissing under me
I'm screaming into the void as it threatens to pull me in
As of right now I fear nothing
Focusing on the fight that I came here to win
Listen to the voices, they're crying for my blood
Vultures, every one of them
I've gotta get up
I sway on my feet because I'm dizzy from the vertigo
Feet buckle under me I fall into the depths below
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Messiahs
03:13
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We don't say what we're thinking
We're all fake for a reason
We're ashamed of what's in our heads
One man's shame: one's entertainment
[Chorus]
It was such a shame when the old man died but it's the best time lately (to not be alive)
And like a train it took me for a ride but it's the last time, baby
I won't be denied
And what matters is that it looks like we tried 'cause it's the big time show offs who end up with the prize
And I swore I'd never let 'em see me cry but it's been one of those days and I'm choked up inside
No one knows what they're doing
Yet you still need convincing
Your messiahs will sell you out when you're no longer useful to them
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All For One
02:11
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Fuel
02:13
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I abhor you
And everything you stand for (not that I'll ever tell you that of course, I need you)
((Not that I'll ever tell you that either, you see I need to keep you in line and I do it with ease))
Step 1: Use media ties to brainwash the public to direct their anger downwards instead of at me
Step 2: Establish I can do no wrong
You see, I am the person you aspire to be
Now add a dash of scandal and a heap of blind loyalty
The people want novelty and I am the king
Propagate madness and disguise it as normality and basic human decency is basically insanity
If deceit is an ocean then I am a riptide
Churning at your insides and dragging you down
I'll look you in the eye and I'll try to be brief as I lie through my teeth
And then spit you back out
I put you in a cage
You applaud me for doing so
This is stockholm syndrome and you call it love
Every room's a prison if you're dumb enough
You've put yourself in there so I've already won
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Syntax
03:25
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(instrumental)
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Cicada
03:21
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It burns, I learn to fear the flame
This red writing says "KEEP AWAY"
It's never enough to walk straight
And if you get up you'll feel the same
It's never right so forget about it
We won't survive here, forget about it
Open your eyes and forget about it
You've got no rights here, forget about it
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Wilderness
05:03
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A skeleton//never to rise//forever lost
Ten thousand years//frozen in time//encased in frost
The winter snow cuts through like glass and chills my bones
A cold wind blows//choking me out//to steal my soul
We are grown men and we have nothing to learn
Nothing to burn so we're fighting
We are grown women and the thing that lives on after we're gone is our writing
There's something wrong//I don't belong//I don't feel right
I had to go//mourning the life I left behind
I know one day I'll forget my name, forget you too
The guilt and shame will be replaced with life anew
We will destroy the ones we proclaim to love
We don't deserve salvation
We've elevated ourselves above all else
Ring out the bells of redemption
We put such faith in our capacity for fighting the war for the greater
Condemning those who realise we're in hell
Denying ourselves of our nature
We destroy endlessly for better or worse
Heaven and Earth are crying
So when the day comes when we all turn to dust
We'll say "we were just surviving"
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AJ Wills Oxford, UK
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